JB: Why did you turn down the money? Was there dilution?
ES: We think so, but didn’t know the details. We just turned it down.
In retrospect, it was a pretty arrogant move to not even explore, but we were just not interested in giving up equity. Most people were pissed off because we weren’t even engaged in the program and then we turned down the money that others would have killed for. I really hope they ended up awarding the investment to another company.
JB: So what happened from there?
ES: We did graduate from college in 2010. Our parents were happy about that.
Dave and I turned down multiple solid job offers to pursue FishList full-time. We both moved into my parent’s basement in Dunwoody, GA which is where we spent the next two years. Dave’s dog moved in too.
We also started looking for angel investors in Atlanta which is how I got connected to David Cummings. There is a pretty funny story about my first meeting with David.
JB: Do tell.
ES: We were pitching to David at the Pardot office. Pardot already had millions of dollars of ARR and at least 75 employees at the time. After our presentation and demo, David gave us some really helpful feedback. Things like, “Focus on customers and revenue versus building the app,” and “Don’t worry about expanding to other industries until you nail seafood.”
The only problem with his feedback is that we were reasonably arrogant and extremely un-humbled. I’m unsure if that is a real word but I’d like you to keep it in there.
We walked out of David’s office (after he passed on investing) and I turned to Dave (my co-founder) and said something to the tune of, “That guy has no idea what he is talking about. By the time we’re his age, we are both going to be billionaires. He’ll regret not investing.”
I still laugh about that one...
JB: How about the business? Did the traction continue?
ES: We certainly thought it was going well...but it wasn’t. Let me just sum up the next two years for you from my perspective:
- I hyper-focused and spent 80% of my time on things that didn’t really matter (our marketing website, business cards, the design of the FishList application, adding the next “critical” feature). ‘If you build it, they will come’ is complete bullsh*t...but it was the paradigm that I was living in.
- FishList had a handful of paying customers and maybe $20,000 in revenue over the entire 3-year period. I’m almost certain none of the paying customers got any value.
- We spent two years in my parents basement with no business metrics, no real accountability, and 100+ hour weeks for months on end. Pulling all-nighters was almost a weekly thing. We had one fist fight and multiple shoving matches.
- I hit what I’m guessing will be my lifelong rock bottom—mentally, physically, emotionally, and financially. By the end of FishList, I was deeply depressed, 20 pounds less than I weigh today, $75K in credit card debt, and was not maintaining high quality relationships with friends or family. My girlfriend at the time also broke up with me—I was blindsided too. There’s lots of details that I don’t want to share with the entire world, but ultimately these were pretty dark times for me.
JB: How did you get out of it?
ES: I was getting progressively more depressed and I didn’t even know what depression was. I was in New York visiting my mom and I could hardly move or get off the couch. I was absolutely miserable. After New York, I went to Philadelphia to stay with Dave (co-founder) and his family. Same story. Miserable.
Shortly after I got back to Atlanta, my mom called me and said, “Eric, it is time to go get a normal job. Call Dave and tell him you can’t continue to pursue FishList. Enough is enough.”
I’m pretty sure I hung up with my mom and called Dave seconds later. He was completely understanding and supportive of my decision.
My mom “gave” me an entire week to brush off my resume and just add a section about my FishList experience. I must have been 23 or 24 years old and needed an entire week to add one section to my resume. That’s where I was at mentally.
After getting my resume updated, my mom told me that I needed to reach out to one company or person each day and to go find a job.